nothing in the air
that night suggested that love
was heading my way.
I tried to imagine all the words that could be used to describe her. Soft, enigmatic, wonderful, loving. All these words with different vowels and consonants and meanings but still my mind settles gently on one: “mine”.
I guess in a way, sometimes it doesn’t matter if you’re the first or the last, you just want to be the one that sticks. You don’t want to think that those quiet nights reading alongside each other on the couch, or those mornings you spent rolled up into each other like a cocoon never wanting to ever get up and those train rides you took home together sharing the stories of your day didn’t mean anything. You don’t want to think that these small, miniscule moments didn’t mean anything at all, because in a way, I think that hurts more, than the separation itself, than him or her meeting someone else. The forgetfulness of it all—that you were once of importance to someone in that way—in a way that you thought you’d never really forget at all.





